How does it happen? When did I have the time to have a year almost pass before my eyes? As you can tell, I'm a little confused. It has been a trying year full of exhilaration, fear, sadness, great joy and any emotion you could possibly think of, TIMES THREE!
Sadly, I must admit there has been very little time dedicated to music. I miss it and at the same time wonder if I'll ever really get into it again. I desperately want and need to continue my musical journey and am doing my very best to bring it back into the front of my life without taking away from my husband and son. The guilt and trepidation is palpable but the passion undeniable. The push and pull of it all is exhausting!
The real differences are time and energy.
The first, "time" is self explanatory. There just aren't hours enough in the day to take care of a marriage, a baby, a household and an awesome music career. How can I create, record, perform, teach etc in an hour a day? It's definitely a conundrum. I'm left wondering if I have done anything musically that will be remembered in the time to come or if it's all been lost in the shuffle. I guess I'll have to find the time to create more so I don't end up feeling cheated.
The second, "energy". To even write the word conjures up visions of riding my bike 8 miles and feeling great, then writing, recording and practicing for 5 hours at a time and then relaxing with the hubby until bedtime at midnight. I know at some point I could do those things without batting an eye. Now however, by 8PM after child care and domesticity, I can barely keep my eyes open.
Music isn't completely lost in the shuffle! Miraculously, I started taking piano lessons to broaden my musical horizons and get me motivated. My next goal is to add in an hour of guitar and singing practice. WOW! Two hours of music a day! My husband has also graciously offered to relinquish his garage to create me a new and improved music room separate from the house yet close enough to not be away from Coby. I am thrilled at the prospect of having a large space dedicated to music but am terrified that I won't be able to produce enough out of it to make it worth while. I have always wanted my music to be a business and more than just my guilty pleasure and this new renovation may be the key to reaching my new music goals.
We will see how it all pans out...
