It has only been heard by 3 people thus far. Myself, my husband and the mastering engineer. Whether it will be well received has yet to be seen. This weekend will be the first time it will be showcased to an audience. I will be giving out copies to all my friends who are coming to celebrate my unborn child at a baby shower. However, it will not be available for sale until later this fall when the permanent packaging is complete with a portrait of my son.
I am thrilled to have completed this album, especially since I have taken it on at a time when my life is truly in transition. I have proved to myself that I can continue on my musical journey in the midst of so much turmoil and change.
However, there is a part of me that will miss the life I've lived thus far. I know it must change as lives always do. I'll miss the freedom to stay in my studio hour after hour writing and recording, the times of just my husband and I on the couch, my times of solo contemplation, etc. There will be many new wondrous and challenging experiences to be had in the coming weeks, months and years. I find it a struggle to accept that I will not be the same as I was before. Not to myself and not to others. I know it's silly but it seems a little like the end of an era. What will be different? I don't even know what to mourn and what to embrace. I guess I'm just a little afraid of the unknown. I know the things that are truly important will remain and the trivial things will pass away. That's what this project proved to me.
Transitions will come and go and life will go on. It always does...
