Changes

Stop telling me what's expected of me!

Perfection...I don't know how to be?

Your Expectations are Killing me!

All around me My dreams are dying.

The life of a woman poking, prying.

A Husband, a Family, a Career, Self-satisfying...

Which is the most important of these?

If I can't do them all will I know true peace?

This need of achieving, will it ever cease?

I was sitting enjoying the fall weather here in Vegas.  October is the most beautiful month of the year here.  Temperatures in the 80's, things green up shortly before winter and there is a crisp cool bite in the air in the morning hours.  Perfect for a walk in the park or a bike ride.  It seems to happen instantaneously.  In a few days the weather changes from the searing heat of summer to the respit of fall and on to the wicked winter. 

I'm sure you've heard the saying, "The only constant is change."  If that is true why does it still come as a shock.  Like your best friend just SLAPS you in the face for no reason.  I'm sitting here wondering, "How did I get here?  How did time pass so quickly?"

I know I'm being cryptic and sounding very negative.  That's not my intention.  The things going on in my life are not bad or wrong.  They are just changes that need to be made.  Patti Griffin is singing out of my speakers about "swimming with snakes in the bottom of the well".  Just a guitar track and Patti cutting through the air.  It sets the mood so well with it's sound that I wonder if it's just a coincidence.  

Things change weather we want or not.  Time moves on so seemingly seperate from all of us. We have a choice, go peacefully or be pulled behind. 

Right now, I'm just trying to keep up...